Comfortably Numb

While at the gym today, the owner of the gym was back in town after a long training session around the country.

I got chatting with him and realised he had a front tooth missing! Very conspicuous by its sudden absence.

He was conscious about it! Was it a recent accident during his last trip? Oh no, this is a 20 year old injury, never set right.

Frequent visits to dentists, many trial, more errors, finally he had to remove it to try one new experiment.

The painful process, emotions and reminders of past treatments, now have left him comfortably numb he said.

The past few weeks have seen me go back and forth on various emotions-happiness, anger, sadness, frustration, fear!! 

This led to breaking away from routine, pushing beyond possibility and at times, giving in to the emotions.

Several chocolates, ice creams, cream filled biscuits and many guilt kms later..........

''There is no pain, you are receding

A distant ship smoke on the horizon

You are only coming through in waves

Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child I had a fever

My hands felt just like two balloons

Now I've got that feeling once again

I can't explain, you would not understand

This is not how I am

I have become comfortably numb''

Pain leaves us weak, drained out; an emotional wreck.

Especially if you are someone who wears their emotions on their sleeve.

When you know you are hurting but the other remains blissfuly untouched, the pain suddenly multiplies.

''Just a little pin prick

There'll be no more aaaaaaaah!

But you may feel a little sick

Can you stand up?

I do believe it's working, good

That'll keep you going through the show

Come on, it's time to go.''

Words, said in anger, linger.

Being human, pain is a constant.

But

slowly.....

''There is no pain you are receding

A distant ship smoke on the horizon

You are only coming through in waves

Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child

I caught a fleeting glimpse

Out of the corner of my eye

I turned to look but it was gone

I cannot put my finger on it now

The child is grown

The dream is gone

I have become comfortably numb.''

Pink Floyd " Comfortably Numb"