“In case you hadn’t noticed, you have a mental dialogue going on inside your head that never stops. It just keeps going and going. Have you ever wondered why it talks in there? How does it decide what to say and when to say it?”
The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself, Michael A Singer
This was exactly my mind for the past 2 weeks!
What went wrong, was I right, is this the right thing, maybe it's fine! Should I try, I could knock.....
The mind is a dangerous tool, it can trick you when you are at your lowest into believing what your heart speaks!
How does the mind know? Should I listen to my heart instead?
Have you been a sounding board to many of your friends and acquaintances? Have you been their conscience when theirs fled them? Have you been their voice of wisdom when sense did not prevail in them?
And having read books, journals, articles on how to help people overcome losses and pains in life, experiencing some on your own, you become quite an empath.
And so it was that Denial, soon gave in to Anger! The mind winning the constant battle with the heart during this phase!!
But it did not last long, the heart being stronger in feelings, went into a Bargaining mode with the Mind!
Neither one could claim victory, soon, both gave up the fight!!
Depression is a killer! But, being an expert in handling heartaches and breakups, having helped many overcome this battle, I felt I was strong.
Acceptance is not easy! But it makes life easy!!
Giving in to the strength of the mind, the words of wisdom spoken through pain, the mind accepts and the heart succumbs to it!!
Words spoken, suddenly, in a brief chat window, do not matter anymore!! Exposed for the emptiness of what it was and is.
Sweet is the taste of freedom! it is a release of happy thoughts again! Your eyes not clouded by tears, the face not stretched in sorrow, instead a smile brightens your day!
No more is there a need to be met by others, empathy soon giving in to self love!
And that is how it is ended! And that is how it will be!!
The time had come!
“Once upon a time, there was a woman who discovered she had turned into the wrong person.”
Back When We Were Grownups, Anne Tyler
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