Monday, 27 August 2018

Bicycling Diaries


Wednesday being a holiday here, I decided to catch up on some afternoon cycling before the kids took over the roads.

I circled the block once, saw a stranger( defined as someone I have never seen before in my complex) with a worried look.
Not used to interfering where I'm not needed, I continued circling the block.
I found few kids running around and wanted to get my 10 K in before more of them came.
The next time I saw her she was with another neighbour ( defined as someone who lives in my apartment complex and I have had casual conversations with) also with a  very worried look and walking rapidly around the block.

I stopped.
and asked if there was a problem,.
"Children missing" she said and asked if I had seen a boy and girl together. 
I had seen few kids, but no boys. 
The stranger, said her kids were missing. They were playing in the park and were not there anymore.

Our apartment complex is safe. That is the reason I choose to live here. 
We have security round the clock and around the blocks.
We have only one functional gate.
There are cameras.
Yet, we have had our own stories of delivery boys and thievery.

I continued cycling, now looking inside the parking lots and between the buildings. 
I went back and met her near the park.
Panic had set in.

Security guards were walking around. Little kids were running around.
The mother was shaking. 

What do we do when something like this happens to us.
We lose our head, we fail to think and sequence out events.
We panic! 

That is why we reach out to others. 
An outsider who can stay calm and think through situations.

I stopped, all thoughts of cycling now gone.
Spoke to her, asked if she was visiting someone here. 
She mentioned she had moved in recently ( 2 weeks back) 
her kids were 5 and 8 years old. 
They were playing in the park with the other kids, but when she came down they were not there.
It had been an hour since then.
I asked about the school they went to, if they had friends in the complex.
She said they knew no one and the only person they knew was the girl who was running around in search of them.
I asked if they may have gone to someone else's house, she insisted they knew no one and would not do that.

How quick we are to forget the natural tendency of kids.
They trust easily, they make friends out of strangers without a thought or fear. 

Being a holiday and the afternoon, there was no one around.
Other than the kids and the two women.
Some gardening staff and the security, Few drivers hanging around.
Office was closed 

Someone had to take charge. 

I told the security to get the keys to the office and have a look at the security camera.
he insisted that no kid had walked out, he was there are the gate, or someone was always there
I believed him.
They take their job seriously here.
Still for the sake of elimination, I requested them to go to the manager's home for the keys.

Next the cleaning staff were sent to all the toilets and storage rooms in all the blocks to have a look.
Sometimes kids sit around there, or maybe get locked in??

The security were made to walk and check behind each car park to check if they were not playing hide and seek. Innocence of kids!!

The kids were sent to check between the apartment blocks where there was plenty of hiding space.

The final person to talk to was the mom who was now in tears.
Questions were repeated, 
Did the kids remember the apartment number?
Did they have other friends
Do they use the lift by themselves.
Did you check inside the apartment before you came down?

I thought back to my kids and the anxious moments I have had with them.

All came back with no sign of the kids.

I realised that they were in someone's apartment or sitting near the terrace entrance. 
My kids have done that. 

I sent the kids out on another mission now.
Go scream the two children's names floor to floor and building by building. 
The mother was sent home to wait near the apartment. 

I could feel the anxiety and felt for her.
I would have done the same, lost my cool, my usual clear thinking head if this had been my kids.
I have been in such situations and gone to various apartments looking for my kids. I have always found them laughing, 
at that moment, I would yell, out of relief, 
they would continue doing it over the years, not realising how much of anxiety they had caused in me. 

The kids were found, 
they were sitting in another apartment with other children they had not known before, 
a random afternoon invite and they were laughing and playing and making friends like how kids should do.

Do we step in when needed?
Do we take charge when we know we can?
Do we have a clear head when others around us lose theirs?
Would we stop to help a stranger?

Friday, 10 August 2018

Voice Of A Distant Star


I should thank the book Gods or my daughter for handing me some good books to read.
One of a kind books which make you love yourself because you read.
These are the best kind of books.

This I read while traveling.  All in a day's journey.

It talks about the social and political discrepancies existing in a society.
The approach is brutal and raw in many places, leaving you angry and sad for the marginalised population.
It could happen anywhere in the world, more so, where there is a marked difference between the haves and have nots. 

The author deftly handles questions on racism, discrimination, prejudices, the answers not always pleasant, but keeping it real.

The storyline is set around a family, community, the support, being there, friendship, love even when it is easy to hate. 
Love the way the author depicts the importance of family and the love which is always there. In every small action, without being overly loud and obvious. Love exists. Even on our worst days.

“At an early age I learned that people make mistakes, and you have to decide if their mistakes are bigger than your love for them.” 

The most important aspect of the book is about being brave. 
A young girl, who is taught to be brave even when she fears. Making us understand the difference yet the connect which exists. 
A young girl is taught to use her voice for something very powerful, and learns that, by itself, it is enough to make a difference. 

“What's the point of having a voice if you're gonna be silent in those moments you shouldn't be?”

It is about being authentic and true to yourself, about being resilient, about the passion that exists within us,consequences of actions and decisions. 

It is a book for the young adult, who is gaining independence in life, yet needs the support of love and guidance of the more experience and world wise family and friends.
It is for girls who are confused about where they belong, who are their real friends, what parents really want for them.

“Sometimes you can do everything right and things will still go wrong. The key is to never stop doing right.” 

What made me love this book- the star of the book is Starr, she handles life and death and black and white.Everyday.
Somehow as I read the book I pictured Lupita Nyong’o playing Starr-(I know she does not act in the soon to be released movie!) 

I left the pages feeling good for my daughter knowing she had read it, knowing in some way, the book would touch her and give her the courage even in fear. 

“Brave doesn't mean you're not scared. It means you go on even though you're scared.” 
The Hate U Give
-Angie Thomas